I’ve barely had a chance to get used to being back in New York. Now I have to contend with the possibility that I might be able to find a job in Texas after all? Just the logistics of it, the whole having to find and get an apartment, then move there all in the span of a couple of weeks or less, terrifies me — almost to the point that I’m hoping this possibility (and others like it) will fall through.

I envy people who know what they want to do and then go about making that happen.