Vacation day two

Today was a pretty typical Sunday. I worked on the Sunday crossword and I went out to the movies with friends. We saw Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows, which was quite entertaining, although considerably less so, I thought, than the first movie, and way to prone to director Guy Ritchie’s stylistic excess. (I could have down without a late-edition scene in the German forest, with explosions speeding up and slowing down and weird camera angles, altogether.)

And I wrote this, in my weekly writing group with those same friends. It was based on three words, chosen more or less at random by the three of us:

Its mammoth size and prodigious speed were, for many months before its official launch, the talk of high society, and the luxury train’s design had been a closely guarded secret, rumored to have cost the lives of a dozen men during construction, and to have sent at least one would-be competitor’s spies empty-handed to prison. First-class cabins were booked well in advance, sold out a full year before the last bolt had been tightened and the last rivet had been fastened, and by the time the great beast of an engine was maneuvered finally on to the tracks, not a single berth aboard was unaccounted for.

And yet, despite all of this — all the movie starlets and dignitaries taking passage aboard the rail, the money and attention lavished upon the project, the editorials at home and abroad praising the train’s construction and the genius of its chief architect and owner, Job Matheson — despite all of this and the many other reasons to rejoice at the Azure Day’s maiden voyage, it was in, in retrospect, inevitable that it never reach its final destination, that it become lost in the snowy mountain wastes it had been designed to traverse, and that it only emerge after several weeks to reveal everyone aboard it either dead or missing.

Piecing together what exactly went wrong, decoding the great and terrible tragedy of the Azure Day, is easier now that we have accepted certain facts, now that we no longer pretend the awful things that live in those mountains are not real, or that they do not have a taste for human flesh. And yet it is all too easy to dismiss Matheson and his compatriots, his benefactors and all those who signed on, unquestioningly, for his train’s first and only voyage. It is all too easy to look upon them all with scorn, to call it hubris and folly that killed over a hundred souls, and that moreover exposed us to those terrible creatures, those we now call wraiths (for want of a better word), with whom we have been at war for almost a century.

And yet, Matheson’s Folly did expose us to them, revealed in the most horrible and immediate way possible the very real threat waiting in those rocky peaks. To think we would have been left alone had the Azure Day not invaded their territory is shortsighted and foolish, and it ignores decades of wraith attacks along the scattered mountain settlements prior to Matheson’s train — not called wraiths, of course, and chalked up to superstition or drunks going missing in the dead of night, a few humans lost each year, but this was the work wraiths all the same. It was they who invaded us. The steam-train was one attack of many; in its sacrifice, we at least came face to face at last with the enemy.

And now that we know where they live, we can perhaps finally remake this planet in our image. The war still wages on, but their advantage is gone, and soon the tide will turn. Soon, we will eradicate them all and take those parts of this world that have been denied us since the original colony ships arrived several hundred years ago.

The Barnes & Noble we meet at, where we’ve been meeting for years, is closing by the end of the year thanks to rising rents. So we’ll have to find someplace new in the new year.

Sunday

Today was the usual Sunday mix of the crossword puzzle and some free-writing:

War is hell. But that’s okay. I’ve been to hell and they know me there. It wasn’t so long ago that they were calling my brother The Devil, capital T, capital D. It wasn’t so long ago that they were calling him the boss, and I was down there in hell what seemed like all the time. My brother didn’t go in for the whole pointy horns and pitchfork act like the guy before him — some traditions, Frank said, are worth keeping and some ain’t — but there wasn’t anybody down there with the guts to cross him and, by extension, me. Times may change, and war may be hell, but hell’s still where most of my real friends hang their hats.

And, anyway, it’s where she is, the last time I saw her. Not like I could leave this place even if I wanted to.

Nowadays, Frank’s down in the Pit, getting tortured, which is a demotion any way you slice it — even if the things that live in the Pit didn’t spend all their time slicing into him. The crew the board hired on to replace Frank after the whole mess has been looking for a way to get us out of this war he started, but I don’t know if they’ve been looking too hard, if you catch my meaning. It’s easy to bad-mouth Frank and the hole his policies maybe dug us into, but it’s a lot harder to turn your back on the opportunities a war like this presents. Nobody likes the war, but seems like everybody likes profiteering from it.

I couldn’t really tell you what the war is all about. Even me, a bona fide damn hero by some accounts, and blood relation to the guy who declared the war in the first place… Even I don’t have much sense of it anymore, what we’re fighting for — beyond some board member’s hypocrisy and greed — and even who the enemy is supposed to be. Was a time, not too long ago, when I would’ve said it was the first demons, the ones who got here long before me and Frank were even a twinkle in our dad’s eye topside. Except, truth be told, she’s a demon, or at least she was living with them, in their nomadic camps. And I’m not really prepared to start thinking of her as my enemy, much less enemy of all of hell, not with everything’s that gone between us. I haven’t seen her in months, maybe almost a year now, but I can’t see me putting a knife to her throat or a gun to her head like I’ve done to a hundred dozen demons since this damn war started.

I’ve been back in the capitol city for about half a week now; in theory, I’m on leave, but I’m really here to pick up supplies and manpower and new orders, before heading back out into the flames. That first day back, I found myself standing at the edge of the Pit — it’s carefully guarded deep in the citadel, and I wasn’t supposed to be there, but I know a guy — and I found myself talking to Frank even though everybody knows you can’t hear anything when you’re down there. It’s like being in a coma, except you’re being flayed alive over and over instead of lying unconscious in a hospital bed. Still, I found myself talking the same way you would with a coma patient, asking for advice, telling him what was new on the front lines, that sort of thing. And I found, despite what I’d promised myself, that before long I was talking to Frank about Sarah, even though we’d never talked about her when he was still in charge, and as far as I knew Frank didn’t even know she existed. It’s not like Frank was anti-demon — it was a war of necessity, he’d liked to say, even after the board was stripping him of his office and casting him into the Pit. But he didn’t know I’d fallen for one of them. I wasn’t even sure myself if that’s what you’d call it. But I needed to talk.

Neither one was entirely satisfactory, but I think I got more enjoyment out of the writing.

Thanksgiving cornucopia

  • We live in a country where pizza is a vegetable. I’m just saying. [via]
  • Harry Potter director developing all-new Doctor Who movie. Not at all a sure thing, but still, when do we stop remaking things? Maybe when the last remake is still on-going?
  • Genevieve Valentine on Immortals, which she describes as “a batch of snickerdoodles with thumbtacks inside.”

    The labyrinth and Minotaur are well turned out, and their showdown takes place in a temple mausoleum, where an archway of stairs frames a goddess’s head that’s inset with candles to make it glow from within. It’s the sort of thing where you think, “Man, that’s good looking! I wish this stupid scene would stop so we could just look at it.”

  • I really don’t know what to think about actress suing IMDB for revealing her age. They both seem to have a perfectly valid point.
  • Massive plagiarism might help your book sales [via]
  • Billy Crystal will be hosting the Oscars this year, giving me another reason not to watch. Which is not a dig at Crystal, necessarily, who I generally like…you know, back when he made movies people watched. But it’s such a safe, boring choice. The Academy really missed a golden opportunity to let the Muppets host the Oscars
  • Tilt-shift Van Gogh
  • Polite Dissent on Forgotten Drugs of the Silver-Age:

    The more I think about it, for all intents and purposes, Jor-El was a mad scientist. He espoused scientific theories well outside the accepted norm and performed numerous unauthorized scientific experiments of questionable ethics.

  • Mysterious D.C. rampage leaves smashed cars in its wake. Seriously, it looks like the Hulk went through there. [via]
  • And finally, the Center for Fiction interviews Margaret Atwood:

    I think it’s a human need to name – to tell this from that. On the most basic level, we need to distinguish – as crows do – the dangerous creature from the harmless one, and – as all animals do – the delicious and healthful food object from the rotting, poisonous one. In literary criticism it’s very helpful to know that the Harlequin Romance you sneak into when you think no one is looking is not the same, and is not intended to be the same, as Moby Dick. But stories and fictions have always interbred and hybridized and sent tendrils out into strange spaces.

Tuesday various

Sunday

I spent the morning struggling with the Sunday crossword and watching The Social Network. In the afternoon, I wrote this:

It was the end of the world, again, and Jane was having an epiphany.

“These grand realizations of yours are getting a little tiresome,” said Abbott. “You have one every time this happens, some critical insight, but you know you’re never going to act on them.”

“You’re just jealous,” Jane said, “because you’re dead and I’m not.”

She knew she was being mean, bringing that up. Abbott was sensitive about a lot of things, but his death most of all. She’d promised, more than once, not to talk about it anymore. She’d survived the original attack on the city and he hadn’t. It was just that simple, and it was just dumb luck. But he’d ticked her off, this holier-than-thou attitude he’d adopted lately, claiming she never acted on anything, as if these epiphanies — and there hadn’t been THAT many of them, really; she was just a naturally introspective person — as if they didn’t really mean anything, as if they didn’t really matter. They mattered to her, and she WOULD act on this one, and Abbott was just being a jerk suggesting otherwise.

Still, she regretted it. He was dead, but neither of them really wanted reminding of that fact. The last thing she needed was for him to go off and start haunting someone else.

“You know I didn’t mean that,” she said. “I’d do anything if I could reverse time far enough back to save you.”

Abbott grumbled, but she knew he wouldn’t stay mad. He wasn’t locked into the time loop as much as everyone else in the city — like her, he COULD act, COULD change — but he was still very much a creature of habit, and sometimes she thought he just let himself get swept along with every reiteration, repeat past actions, mistakes, grievances, just so he wouldn’t have to fight. He could be a jerk, but he usually wouldn’t rally much beyond that.

Take that stubble on his chin, for one, that five o’clock shadow he refused to shave off, despite hating the look of it in the mirror, despite the fact that he kept scratching at it. “It’ll just grow back,” he’d said. As if that was the absolute truth, as if they hadn’t both made changes happen, hadn’t carried over memories from one loop to the next, hadn’t chipped away at cause and effect until it acted a little bit more like it had before the attack. Sure, she couldn’t bring Abbott back from the dead, yet, but he could at least shave off those damn whiskers.

“I just don’t think you’ve thought this all the way through,” he told her now. “The loop always starts up again AFTER the chronobomb was detonated near City Hall. Even if you could do it, I don’t see how being somewhere closer to the blast is going to change anything. Epiphany or not, time will already have exploded. It will ALWAYS already have exploded.”

“You never studied chronomechanics,” Jane said, as the city began to fracture outside the window. “You weren’t in the war. Leave this to the professionals.”

I think I may spend the evening reading.