A fantastic day

All day long, and even since late last night when I think it first happened, I’ve had what I think is maybe the single itchiest mosquito bite on the inside of my left leg. It’s driven me quite mad throughout the day.

But this evening, despite all that, I went back to the Center for Fiction in Manhattan for a panel discussion on Why Fantasy Matters. It was about as interesting, but a lot more on point, as the utopia/dystopia panel on Monday. I’m a big fan of Kelly Link, and I quite enjoyed Naomi Novik’s first Temeraire book. And if I’ve yet to read anything by Felix Gilman and my experience with Lev Grossman’s writing has been less than terrific, everybody had a lot of interesting things to say about the genre. Including Grossman, who I actually quite like as critic of (and apologist for) fantasy, and whose much better known novels I may just have to pretend don’t exist. (Seriously, if I haven’t made it clear, I hated The Magicians.)

Two things I particularly liked. First, Grossman’s acknowledgment that “one thinks a lot of grandiose and unacceptable things as one is starting a novel.” And Novik’s writing advice: find writing that you like and critique it. I find this is one of — possibly the only, but certainly one of — the benefits of having a slush pile, as I do with Kaleidotrope. Figuring out why a piece of fiction does or doesn’t work, and putting that critique into words, can be valuable experience for a writer. (It also doesn’t hurt to see the other side of the rejection letter. It’s almost never fun for anybody.) You can learn just as much, if not more, from giving critique as from receiving it, Novik said (to a nodding Kelly Link beside her).

There are a few more events this month at the Center that I may be going to, but that’s it for this week. Onward to a perfectly ordinary, realistic Thursday.

Regular old Tuesday

I wore a jacket today. Of course, that’s the closest thing to exciting that happened all day.

I did finish reading N.K. Jemsin’s Hugo-nominated novel The Hundred Thousand Kingdoms, which was part of the voter packet, for the awards I ended up not voting on. I actually finished reading the novel last night, except for a couple of lines, but my e-book app suggested I still had several pages to go. Had I actually flipped those pages, I would have discovered they were taken up mostly with (fairly unnecessary) glossaries and other appendices.

Still, I liked the book. It’s inventive and entertaining, imagining not just a fantasy world but a cosmology of gods and gods imprisoned in semi-mortal form. I’m not rushing on to read the sequel — which, as I understand it, takes place in the same world but is a stand-alone book — but mostly just because I need a brief break from fantasy novels.

I started Ann Patchett’s State of Wonder this morning.

If the world ended on a Monday, would anybody notice?

I wish I’d worn a jacket today.

It got cooler unexpectedly — although unexpected only if you discount the fact it probably ought to have been cooler a whole lot sooner, that days with highs of 80 degrees (something like 25 Celsius?) maybe aren’t the norm for late September or early October. But just a week ago, I was wearing short-sleeved shirts to work, and I didn’t think I needed more than the long-sleeved shirt (plus T-shirt beneath) I decided to wear today. It was a little cool, but I figured once the sun came up, I’d be fine.

And I was, but I kind of wish I’d worn a jacket. The sun didn’t come up all that much.

Metaphorically, though, it came up pretty nicely.

Oh, sure, there was that police shooting around the corner from my office. I mean literally around the corner. It happened last night apparently, and today it was just a crime scene investigation that had the block cordoned off and blocked to traffic. But still: yikes.

Otherwise, though, things were good, even for a Monday. I discovered first thing that Kaleidotrope had again been reviewed in Locus. The review, of the past two issues, is kind a mixed bag — Rich Horton singles out a couple of stories for praise, but he’s not uncritical of them — but it was still great to see the zine reviewed in those pages. (Even if the physical pages proved exceptionally difficult to track down. I eventually purchased the PDF direct from Locus, decided to re-up my lapse subscription in the process.)

Then this evening, after work, I attended a short panel discussion ostensibly on Utopia/Dystopia at the Center for Fiction. It was the start of a month-long series on fantasy and science fiction at the Center, most of which I’m actually (right now) planning on attending, and it was interesting, if not exactly what was advertised. Though authors Anna North, Kathleen Ann Goonan, and Charles Yu seemed to be, occasionally, trying to steer the conversation back towards all things utopian and dystopian, I’m not sure moderator DongWon Song was on the same page as everyone else. The discussion, for the most part, was a lot broader, about being a science fiction writer and the differences (real and market-imposed) between it and “mainstream” or “literary” fiction.

As such, it was interesting, but nothing especially new. The debate over where genre begins and ends, the benefits and drawbacks to writing within it, has been raging for years.

Still, it was interesting. Charles Yu’s How to Live Safely in a Science Fictional Universe was one of the best books I read last year, and I enjoyed Goonan’s Queen City Jazz well enough years ago. (I thoroughly gave up on the first of the sequels just this year, however, and I felt a little guilty about that sitting there. I may feel guiltier on Wednesday, when the panel on fantasy includes Lev Grossman.) I’d never heard of North before, though I thought she spoke quite knowledgeably about science fiction, and she seemed the most determined to (subtly but repeatedly) steer the conversation back towards the end of the world.

No small surprise since that’s kind of what her book is about.

Still, these seemed like good people to be talking about utopia and dystopia and the contrast between the two. That what they mostly discussed seemed closer in spirit to the topic of Margaret Atwood’s upcoming talk — one of the few Center events this month I think I won’t be attending — was amusing, especially since it was only back in March that I went to hear Atwood herself speak about utopias and dystopias. (She favors the term of her own coinage, ustopias.)

Noonan defended her most recent novel, which apparently posits an alternate history, as not a utopia, as if that in and of itself was a dirty word. Changing some things just creates new problems, she said — I think rightly — which led later into a discussion of whether utopias are even possible. The odds of something terrible happening, even if it’s not specifically another ice age (North) or nanotech gone wild (Goonan) or “time travel as a means of regret” (Yu), are a lot better than a perfect world. The real world, after all, isn’t perfect, and it’s full of fallible people.

In many stories, in fact, dystopias are the price the characters (and/or world) pay for the creation (or failed creation) of someone else’s utopia. Perhaps every dystopia is simply a failed utopia, or the nostalgia for a lost one. Specific examples cited by the authors (and by the one audience member who really asked a question about the topic) included Ursula K. Le Guin’s “The Ones Who Walk Away from Omelas,” Sheri S. Tepper’s The Gate to Women’s Country, H.G. Wells’ The Time Machine, Atwood’s own The Handmaid’s Tale. These are often utopias at first glance — Wells’ Eloi, for instance, who live a life of comfort and ease — with a dystopia lurking beneath — the Morlocks, literally beneath, toiling in slavery underground. Or they are stark dystopias — Atwood’s repressive Republic of Gilead — brought about when someone — in this case the leaders of Gilead — attempt to impose their brand of utopia on the world. As North pointed out, the villains in dystopias tend to think they’re creating utopias, much like supervillains in comics.

“There’s always a mad scientist,” added Goonan.

Yu’s book, by contrast, is more a “personal dystopia,” or rather “not a dystopia, but just a super-sad universe.” Still, he talked about being liberated in his writing when he actually created that universe, gave it structure, form, and rules. “I was bound by my own constraints,” he said, and that’s what was so freeing as a writer.

So, in all, it was an interesting evening, if not exactly what I’d been led to expect. I didn’t stay for the book signing or wine reception afterward, but I’m glad I went all the same.

Even if, on the walk back to my subway, I kind of wish I’d worn a jacket.

Back to the garden party

I had this idea, in the back of my head, that I would get up early this morning to write. But, honestly, it’s an idea I’ve had many times before, and it almost never seems to win out over going back to sleep for another hour.

I suppose there’s always tomorrow to try it again. I’ve been reading Anne Lamott’s Bird by Bird : Some Instructions on Writing and Life, which so far is full of a lot of simple but really good practical advice for writers. It makes a little sad for not having encountered the book except by name before this…but it also makes me want to write, so that’s good.

This afternoon, at work, we had one of our semi-regular “brown bag lunches,” where they invite in a speaker and give everybody shows up to hear the speaker a free lunch. It can be hit or miss sometimes, but today’s talk by NY DJ and author Pete Fornatale was actually pretty entertaining and informative. He talked more about Woodstock than his experience in radio — he’s got a new book on the former — and the presentation maybe got a little away from him near the end — he showed this video in its entirety; Chris Bliss is an impressive juggler, but even if I hadn’t seen the video before, it strayed a little from the topics at hand. But, overall, it was one of the better talks we’ve had.

And hey, free lunch.

Still grinding along

I’ll say this much for going away for a week and a half: it certainly leaves you with plenty of work to do when you return.

It feels like it’s going to be a long week, although not necessarily a bad one. We had cupcakes and ice cream cake for a co-worker’s birthday today, so how bad could it be? And I finished reading Scott Westerfeld’s Leviathan, which, if not exactly brilliant, is good fun, smart and entertaining YA steampunk.

I just feel like I haven’t quite adjusted to being back. Part of that’s the change in the weather, not really yet fall but definitely starting to cool down. Though it was at least this cool, if not occasionally cooler, in Canada, it still feels strange to have left New York and found that time has actually continued to move on in my absence. And I still miss a lot about Banff. Admittedly, it’s hard not to miss a lot about it — setting my own schedule, responsible for nothing more than enjoying the scenery and trying to write — but I still haven’t quite shaken the weird disconnect of being back.

I suppose I will, at some point.