Tuesday

I didn’t sleep terrifically well last night, having several very odd dreams — including one, just before I woke up properly, in which I seemed to be explaining at some length the plot of Ordinary People.

I could pretend the day got more exciting than that, but who would I be kidding? In lieu of anything to actually write about, here’s my March music mix:

  1. “Everywhere” by Fleetwood Mac
  2. “I and Love and You” by the Avett Brothers
  3. “Big Machine” by Ryan Miller
  4. “Good Morning Sunshine” by Alex Day
  5. “Read My Mind” by the Killers
  6. “Share the Moon” by Indigo Girls
  7. “Lead Me Home” by Jamie N Commons
  8. “Flicker” by Kathryn Williams
  9. “Ballad of a Politician” by Regina Spektor
  10. “End Game” by Anthony Stewart Head

Easter parade

Happy Easter (or Passover)!

I had a very nice meal out with my parents at the restaurant around the corner. In all my years growing up and living here, I don’t think I’ve ever actually eaten there, but the lamb was quite tasty. We probably would have had something even closer to home — like at home — except my sister and her husband weren’t able to join us. (Their cat recently took sick, and while he’s doing okay, they can’t very well leave him alone for the weekend, or travel with him.)

It’s been cold and rainy here today, but it was a decent day. I finished prepping the latest issue of Kaleidotrope, and I’m quite pleased with it. It’ll go live tomorrow, April 1 tonight, March 30. As always, I hope some of you will check it out.

And that was Sunday.

Back to school

I went campus calling today, visiting Adelphi University and talking to instructors across departments. Well, it was supposed to be across departments, but I just missed the professor in political science I’d hoped to meet with this afternoon — she warned me, she was in advising sessions all day — and couldn’t connect with the few others I thought might be willing to meet. So it was pretty much all psychology, plus the bookstore. I’m still hoping to get a few “meetings” done over the phone, with people who said they’d meet but couldn’t do so today.

I just can’t get those people to respond to my follow-up e-mails is all.

Meanwhile, I was unexpectedly given a new desk chair for my birthday yesterday — along with a number of other very generous gifts and well-wishes — and it’s amazing to discover this odd sensation at my desk which I think might just very well be comfort.

Long-for long weekend

I took today off from work, to enjoy a long weekend. I work from home tomorrow, and then will be visiting a college campus close to home on Wednesday, so I’m sneaking in a little extra where I can.

I spent a lot of today getting caught up on The Walking Dead. I was less disappointed in the episodes than I thought I would be.

“You never know what’s comin’ for ya.”

It’s been a pretty ordinary handful of days lately. I decided a little while back to take this coming Monday off, so this has been a three-day weekend, and I still have tomorrow off. I’ll work from home on Tuesday, and then travel to a local campus on Wednesday, so hopefully it shouldn’t be too rough a week. The part of me that gets to sleep in a little late in the morning certainly doesn’t think so.

Last night, my parents and I went out to dinner for my upcoming birthday, and except for dessert, which was decent but unremarkable, it was a very lovely meal. I had duck gnocchi with wild mushrooms, pine nuts, golden raisins, and pancetta to start, and then possibly the best sea scallops I’ve ever tasted. (With roasted cauliflower, toasted almonds, and more golden raisins.) I was ridiculously stuffed afterward, but it was a very good meal.

This evening, I watched the first episode of the new Bates Motel television series, which wasn’t very good, and then later The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, which surprised me because it was.

I think the AV Club is right about the series that “[t]he problem, then, is that Bates Motel is simply overburdened by the reason it exists.” It fails to work, at least in part, because it winds up having to be a Psycho prequel. (It’s the same thing I thought seeing the trailer for the upcoming Hannibal TV show. It looks strangely interesting; I just really, really wish it wasn’t an adaptation/prequel/remake of Manhunter/Silence of the Lambs.)

And earlier today, in my weekly writing group, I came up with this based on some prompts we picked out of Scientific American Mind magazine:

“I can kill you with my brain,” she said, “and with just a glance. But let’s pretend for a moment that we’re both civilized people and there’s maybe a better solution?”

He frowned, but then nodded, holstering his weapon, and sat in the wing chair opposite her. “Agreed,” he said — and she realized with a start that in all these years this was perhaps the first time she had actually heard his voice. And after he had killed how many of her sisters?

“So we are at an impasse,” she said. “I have no desire to kill you nor any desire to die, but that seems to be where fate has landed us.” She tried to smile; she would not betray herself with a showing of fear, not to this man, damn his eyes. “Tea?” she said, lifting the pot.

Again, the nod, and almost a hint of a smile himself. A trained killer, she thought, and completely ruthless, but not wholly above the social niceties. For just a moment she wondered which of them both she was thinking of.

“Two sugars,” he said. “No lemon.”

She poured the tea and handed him the cup. He let it cool for a moment in his hands, blew gently across its surface, but then drank the tea without hesitation. He knew you wouldn’t stoop to poison him, she thought, and then just as quickly regretted that she hadn’t. She sipped from her own cup and stared at him, letting the silence settle between them, counting up all the room’s exits in her head.

“What I propose is a bargain,” she said finally, returning her cup to the tray on the table in front of her. “Or perhaps more accurately a trade. My life — “

He stared, but said nothing, still sipping his tea.

“ — for information. I know things that you don’t, things even my sisters didn’t know. If you killed me now — or rather, if you tried to kill me now — that knowledge would die with me.”

He nodded — so calm, damn him, even now — and leaned forward in the chair to place his own, now empty cup upon the tray. Then he sat back, actually crossed his legs, and this time did smile. There was more good humor in that look than she would have thought possible; this was just a job to him, one he took great pleasure in, but he did not hate her. And suddenly she hated him all the more because of that.

“You have no information that I want or need,” he said, a great finality to his voice. Even seated, relaxed, almost laughing, she knew he could reach his gun before she could act. Only his own doubt of that had saved her this far. “You don’t know anything.”

“I know who sent you here,” she said. “I know your employers. And I know how to kill them.”

He stared for a very long minute, and she braced herself for the shot, that final bullet with her name on it, and then he said:

“All right. I’m listening.”

I dunno, I kind of like it.

And that’s been most of weekend. Still one day of it to go, however, thank goodness.